Alrighty, so got a new account made, jbelle89 .

Go have fun when i eventually add stuff...which should be soon...no promises...

Jillian

Hey everyone, if anyone is still paying attention to little shadowedeyes89

I am still doing art, but i have been lacking the time and effort to actually photograph/scan stuff and put it on. I will be planning on putting some stuff on in the next few weeks, so be on look out for all that.

Thanks everyone!

Jillian

PS. I will probably close this account and open another one with a better name soon, but thats for another night.

I am sorry for not being honest and not just being myself. I have told many people about who i wished i was, just without the part where i mention that it was a wish.

I am a girl, a not very plain girl, as i have finally come to see and a girl that lost my way between being a child and being an adult..who skipped through growing up and had to learn the hard way that one cannot "skip" parts of the life process because each thing you learn, whether you know it or not you will use later. I am finally finding myself and the things that i need to do for myself, but in the process i have hurt many people along the way, and i have ruined many a friendship.

You know who you are, and i miss you all so much. I accept the fact that i have messed up too much this time, and the changes i have made to myself are too late. Remember though that i love you all, and i cherish the time we had together everyday.

Jillian

Hello all you beautiful people,

So, i was alittle late from what i said in my last journal, but i did update! Some are just random ones i have taken in the past few months, and the rest were of when i was in Paris in April. Actually, I do have more updates, from the 4 day trip i took to Lopez Island in the San Juan Islands, WA with Erin and my Mum and Da last weekend. It started off alittle slow, but the last 2 days were awesome. There was this amazing beach that I went rock climbing crazy at..yeah..there will be pictures. I will be updating them pretty soon, since I am out of school now.

I have been hanging out at Victor's Coffee House in Redmond, WA alot the past few months. Tonight I was there by myself, apart from a guy, Brian that i was meeting there. Really very awesome guy. (If you read this, Brian, i loves yous!) Yeah..so it was alot of fun, great music, great people, and great food and coffee, and not to mention great surroundings and very positive and varied energy.

I dont really know why, but apparently I have a subscribed account for a week, so i thought i would take advantage of it and do some cool stuff.

Recently I have been learning Maori, that is what the subject is in. This is my favourite concept right now, and its beautiful in the language. Ne te mahi kai paipa, meanings "we are all one being".

Love you all, take care,


Jillian

Hello beautiful people..
This seems to be my first entry for alittle over a month..i apologize for that. i know i promised an update in that last entry too..something i also have not done..but maybe when school gets out in about a week..

Right..yes, school is getting out in about 7 week days..thank god. i really need a break..get something done for myself and not for teachers and others. i have been doing alot of reading (mainly of chuck palahnuik's, the author of fight club) and doing some writing aswell.

Today was the day of the bluefish art festival in kirkland (a bit south-east of seattle). I put four photographs in that i had got professionally printed and matted. three of the photographs are completely new, and havent been updated here yet, however, Show me, or Crystal Ball is in it.

I had my dance recital a few weekends ago, that went rather well, all and all. I have been dancing alot, and it has been taking up most of my time, along with school. i have finally been working on my quad pirouette, and more advanced technique and material.

This is all for now, working on that update by the 22nd, promise.

Take care everyone, loves you all,

Jillian